Cause you're always on my mind
Friday, April 10, 2009
Each time my birthdy draws near, there will be that one person whom I will never forget.. and that's my late grandmother.. even thought it has been 3 years since she passed on, not a single day would I forget about her.. She passed away on 3rd May.. just 2 days after my birthday.. I still remember that on my birthday, I went to visit her.. and she could still wish and give me some money.. It was a sad period but joyous.. I was able to spend my time with her.. and even being weak and in constant pain, she could still remember.. Gosh.. writing this already makes me tear up..
The day that she died, I was working at IRAS.. but my cousin and I received a call saying my grandmother was too weak and on the brink of passing on.. So we rushed home.. When I reached, she did not open her eyes.. But she was still breathing.. I remembered how tears just couldn't stop flowing.. I remembered how I just couldn't let her go.. I remembered how I just sat beside the bed just feeling her.. Not wasting my last chances of feeling her.. of touching her.. It was so hard asking for forgiveness when I'm not sure if she could hear.. I felt like shaking her.. Ask her to wake up and stay strong.. don't cave in to the illness.. but she was already in stage 4 cancer when diagnosed..
I remember how there are some days that I grumbled not being able to stay out later than usual because she was at my home.. I remember how i used to massage her feet every night, and I feel happy doing it.. Now, I just miss her.. I miss her a lot.. and even though i know my birthday will be a good one, I know that there will be one person that I wish could be here with me..
*Al-Fateha*
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